Saturday, January 31, 2015

No Words

I've thought and thought about this post for almost two weeks now. What to say. How to say it. And the only thing that really comes to mind is the fact that I have no words. No words at all.

Last Monday, January 19th, my boss called. And on the line with her was our HR Director.

Apparently TridentUSA Mobile Clinical Services, the division I worked for, had a rough 2014 and the tough decision to eliminate positions was upon my boss. And my position was affected. In a bad way. The words, 'effective immediately, Trident has eliminated your position and terminated your benefits.'

NO WORDS.

Not only was I unemployed, but my babies had no insurance. I broke down like no other. Bawling. Out of control. Although my boss assured me it had nothing to do with my personal performance, I still felt like a failure. She said I had done her and the company a wonderful job, that she was so so sorry, but that she had no choice. She was instructed to lay people off. But she said she would write me an awesome letter of recommendation, be a strong reference, whatever it took to get me a new job.

I still had no words.

I woke up Tuesday and life did go on but I was sad. And beyond petrified to look for a new job. A brand new start. I have been very blessed over the years to have only worked for two companies since graduating college in 2001. But.....I got up, updated my resume, asked my best friends, bible study group, and family to all pray for me, and I hit the ground running.

I have absolutely no words for what went on during these last two weeks. I had friends from my gym passing my resume along, bible study women giving me phone numbers of people to call who may be hiring, I had sorority sisters rallying together to not only make me feel better but find open jobs for me......It was amazing. Unlike anything I've ever seen. By Wednesday, I had 3 interviews set.

No words. None. Nada. Zilch. He was holding my hand, giving me strength and confidence, and showing me things were going to be ok.

Now I'm humbly and happy to say Ive had one offer, 2 second round interviews with two difference companies, 1 forth round interview, and a phone interview. What an experience. My dear friend Drea said it best: 'Looking for a job is a full time job when you do it right.'

And, I couldn't agree more. Ive been busy as hell these last two weeks but I wouldn't have it any other way. I've told everyone I'm talking to that I'm looking for a new start but that I'll be there till the end. And I firmly believe that. Although extremely difficult, I'm starting to see the silver lining with this lay off and know God has great things in store for me.

Tess has been a little under the weather lately, and of course, the night before my fourth round of interviews with Grace Health, T starts running a fever. Perfect. What to do?!?!? I can't cancel!! So, I call my friend Katie, who doesn't work, to see if she could keep Tess for me for a few hours and I'll be damned if that angel wasn't on my doorstep at 830 AM the next morning. Not only was she available but she was on time and ELATED to be in the presence of my baby. Which made me feel so good and thankful for good friends.

No words.

Her kids are 7 and 9 or 8 and 10 so she is ALL about a baby right now. Thanks KT for being a major life saver!!!! I will owe you for life!!! Here are some pics she took while keeping her. So precious!!!














































Mom had to come the next day bc she was still running a low grade fever and I had interviews. After my first one I decided to take her to doc just to make sure it wasn't RSV or flu and it wasn't thank goodness!! While there I took this video ....You would never have known she was sick. Bless her... Such a happy happy baby. Thanks for your help mom!!!!!


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And, last but certainly not least: this man is my rock. He's been my biggest fan and supporter through all of this and I would never be able to tackle this huge life changing event without him beside me. I have no words for how much I love this man.






Cheers,
Lindley

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